Tuesday, October 28, 2003
people, i may quit soccer to join hockey. i have manpower duty at MGS funfair on Sat, also have SAT on Sat morning... sianz... donno why people dun appriciate the things i do for them. I am in a freak house.... why? i am sensitive enough to notice things, and when they need help, i took the intiative to help, yet get cold responses. Am I in Antartica? Why are there so many icemen n icewomen n Mr, Mrs, Ms Freeze around me?
My impression of certain people changed... i dun realli like this place. The good , the bad and the ugly, there are more of the later n latest around. I did nothing to harm anyone, i never did. I tried to be nice, some felt, some dun, some denied it.... why? so many questions, so little answers. This is the God's college, but why does it have so much(infinite) unpleasant stuff? I just can resist to love, to hate... whenever i thought the sun is coming out, its overcast again. My class lost soccer, captain's ball, basketball, with onli street brandy left for AC Games sports. EGO is the difference between victors n loosers. I donno how to help people be better people, i can onli do my part. AC soccer suffered 3 defeats. 2-1 to SAS, 4-0 to OFS n 7-4 to some adult team, i played none in it.
I could have made the difference over the agile, the commanding, the stamina with experience. I will get my contacts n try to prove myself, success or failure, i am ME.
My impression of certain people changed... i dun realli like this place. The good , the bad and the ugly, there are more of the later n latest around. I did nothing to harm anyone, i never did. I tried to be nice, some felt, some dun, some denied it.... why? so many questions, so little answers. This is the God's college, but why does it have so much(infinite) unpleasant stuff? I just can resist to love, to hate... whenever i thought the sun is coming out, its overcast again. My class lost soccer, captain's ball, basketball, with onli street brandy left for AC Games sports. EGO is the difference between victors n loosers. I donno how to help people be better people, i can onli do my part. AC soccer suffered 3 defeats. 2-1 to SAS, 4-0 to OFS n 7-4 to some adult team, i played none in it.
I could have made the difference over the agile, the commanding, the stamina with experience. I will get my contacts n try to prove myself, success or failure, i am ME.
Monday, October 20, 2003
Fri-Mon = CCAB Camp
Tue = sick
Wed = paint banner
Thur = match against Overseas Family School, lost 4 : 0
Fri = morning PE, afternoon match with "6towers" of HCJC
Sat = openhouse n party @ bryan house
i dun think i am continuing to stay in soccer, coach is frozing me out like alex did to barthez. My PC kenna virus so onli can use comp in sch... tmr soccer 2.4, must be less than 10 min, my timing without injury is 13++, donno how la... its freaking me out.
Tue = sick
Wed = paint banner
Thur = match against Overseas Family School, lost 4 : 0
Fri = morning PE, afternoon match with "6towers" of HCJC
Sat = openhouse n party @ bryan house
i dun think i am continuing to stay in soccer, coach is frozing me out like alex did to barthez. My PC kenna virus so onli can use comp in sch... tmr soccer 2.4, must be less than 10 min, my timing without injury is 13++, donno how la... its freaking me out.
Wednesday, October 15, 2003
This is whats on the bible... I haven have got the honour to experience the power of God, at least it has not had a big impact on my life... i prayed, but got not much response. responses were inappropriate... i wonder why, am i at any fault? Lets Pray
Psalm 91
"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, 'He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.'
Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
You will only observe your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
If you make the Most High your dwelling-
even the Lord, who is my refuge-
then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
For he will command his angels converning you
to guard you in all your ways;
they will life you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread upon the lion and cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
'Because he loves me,' says the Lord, 'I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him/
With long life will i satisfy him
and show him my salvation.' "
Psalm 91
"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, 'He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.'
Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
You will only observe your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
If you make the Most High your dwelling-
even the Lord, who is my refuge-
then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
For he will command his angels converning you
to guard you in all your ways;
they will life you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread upon the lion and cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
'Because he loves me,' says the Lord, 'I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him/
With long life will i satisfy him
and show him my salvation.' "
Monday, October 13, 2003
Just back from CCAB camp, v shagged, 3days sleep 10 hours... shagged but fun, great to be in the same team as joses, biaoming, christoper, yap xiong, kamil, jingkai, shu yi, debbie lam, debbie pham, lynette and serena. Biaoming is always MVP la... SIanz.. shagged, tmr skipping sch, going into details next time... but i realli am glad that i have been through this, with the help of my teammates... getting the ac spirit but the tchs one is still here... realli get turn off by some people around whom make me reluctant to go to school... the camp was great anyways... THE BEST IS YET TO BE & ZHI4 QIANG2 BU4 XI1 !
Thursday, October 09, 2003
PeePZ, going for camp now, sianz, some dumb leadersheep camp...from tmr to tue...
more like some POW camp, all the torture.... dun feel like going. Thanks chu fung for helping me bring n buy stuff... Gonna miss the j2s! their last day tomorrow... esp 3 j2 gals who have been brightening up my life indirectly... good luck people... I got their number, 2 of them, one not so happy abt it... sorry~! I will regret if i dun ask my friend for her number. Thanks charlie! Thanks for helping mw with sleeping bagZ too. Hopefully can survive... few people i knew r in there... dezhong, Ian, melvin, yanbin, joses, mohan, stella, melissa, sujuan, albert, ... dun have liao i think....
more like some POW camp, all the torture.... dun feel like going. Thanks chu fung for helping me bring n buy stuff... Gonna miss the j2s! their last day tomorrow... esp 3 j2 gals who have been brightening up my life indirectly... good luck people... I got their number, 2 of them, one not so happy abt it... sorry~! I will regret if i dun ask my friend for her number. Thanks charlie! Thanks for helping mw with sleeping bagZ too. Hopefully can survive... few people i knew r in there... dezhong, Ian, melvin, yanbin, joses, mohan, stella, melissa, sujuan, albert, ... dun have liao i think....
Monday, October 06, 2003
Medicine can cure sickness, love can cure a broken heart, what can cure prejudice?
In ancient times, great ones were tortured, prosecuted, crucified... physical sufferings
In present time, things seemed to have changed, with laws n order, physical sufferings greately reduces... but it is not better, all these turned into mental sufferings... Having to carry the burden to carry these on my back everyday... all day all nignt, yes, all day all nignt, thinking of u, from the lyrics of "unwell" waiting for someone to share the burden with me, unreallistically... who would want to invest in an "bear" share hoping for the rise to fame one day. I placed myself one the cutting board of a fishmonger, donno whats my fate... fillet-o-fish? Curry fish head? steam fish? hai! Missed the j2s... Fractured my thumb on fri while playing soccer, went for the CORO GP, 5 min $25... but maths promos got extra time... question quite tuff, daydream during extra time, also not v usefuly cause the teacher was scolding a bastard for cheating.. CHEATING in exams, so ex ACS i guy, realli not shameful...
BTW, to shiwei, sorry for holding up ur notes, maclaurins, till u dun get to study, realli sorry. Serhwee's common test still with me...
In ancient times, great ones were tortured, prosecuted, crucified... physical sufferings
In present time, things seemed to have changed, with laws n order, physical sufferings greately reduces... but it is not better, all these turned into mental sufferings... Having to carry the burden to carry these on my back everyday... all day all nignt, yes, all day all nignt, thinking of u, from the lyrics of "unwell" waiting for someone to share the burden with me, unreallistically... who would want to invest in an "bear" share hoping for the rise to fame one day. I placed myself one the cutting board of a fishmonger, donno whats my fate... fillet-o-fish? Curry fish head? steam fish? hai! Missed the j2s... Fractured my thumb on fri while playing soccer, went for the CORO GP, 5 min $25... but maths promos got extra time... question quite tuff, daydream during extra time, also not v usefuly cause the teacher was scolding a bastard for cheating.. CHEATING in exams, so ex ACS i guy, realli not shameful...
BTW, to shiwei, sorry for holding up ur notes, maclaurins, till u dun get to study, realli sorry. Serhwee's common test still with me...
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