WaYnE 's WoRlD : a Fairy Tale of a Lifetime...

Must study liao, promos next week... cant let them distract me... more encouters with Jocelyn but Natile is avoiding me or sth like that, i donno why, dun care why, why care why? She lives in the condo beside, beside B too. Sianz... must MUG. God is helping me but how can i help myself? Got screwed by 2 library teacher for VOICES, feel like quitting... the place that brought as much joy as much hope as much motivation as sorrow as disappointment as ... as problems. What should i do?

Couldnt study on Sun, think some craps somewhere n sianz, no motivation tp study sia... Monday blues, late again, shagged... Was in libarary during chinese, when i was abt to leave, the shelves area was packed. Opened the glass door... miracle, Joanne was less than a metre away from me. Before i could react, Jo dropped her red wallet n calculator... was carrying too much stuff... she was giggling, nice smile. Ya, helped her with her wallet n cal immediately, she thanked me. Donno why, i am an odd guy, i wun hesitate to help people but when they thank me i seldom say " ur welcome", usually just smile. Stayed back after sch to slack at library, looking at classmates wrapping books. After which went down, saw charlie, kope his ricola elderflower or sth like that, nice. She wasnt there. Went talk to someone then watch people play soccer at D, think pekster was there. Turn back n saw her... excited, hahaha, din dare to approach her. Did some work with Charlie, he "torture" my duck. and tried to sarbo me by introing me to someone. A while she left, with a guy, to take 174, which i took too. They were together in seat, standing, maybe all the way home. Disappointed, devastated, depressed, dead. Hope to me is hopeless, why? I donno, in class also sarbo by bryan to do the debate shit. i dun need to use a screwdriver to screw up my life, its already done, done for.

training was quite tough, sianz, onli 2 keepers around, tim i think, canoist, not bad. people call me barthez, and he is tim, feel like man u squad, like he is tim howard and im barthez. however it went okay, cleared a few, had some good catches from corners and shots, not realli tested very much, but too make a mistake, miskicked to some opponent closest to me, he shot left and i scrambled, corner. Was quite tired cause fri went tchs played street then went for some performance in hcjc audi, 2 familiar faces from ac onli and im the onli one in ac U, then there got lin junjie perform, nice voice, so arrived hom around 12, sleep at one, wake up at 7, training b4 8-11+, shagged. Theres onli one thing in my mind, my brain, my life now... Went bought shoes, then paint it in the shop @ 2nd floor CORO, the auntie let me keep my things there... haha, got some chiobu, cute one, but didnt move me, she is not her.

After a disasterous physics test, i was again at library, hoping to rest. Wanted to use the comp or sleep... the saw Salina using the comp with a friend, so went log the comp beside her... hahaha, her friend is facing me so whenever i look at Susan for around 5s, she notice liao... ahahha.. Sabrina's gallaz brand shoe, long tied hair, brown ribbon... smile lei... waiting for her trademark smile... heehee. Btw the 3 chio bu, Sarah, Narina n Adeline r from same class one, the guys in that class must be v lucky! think shes checking on sth on bio for prac later, maybe shift 2 or 3. oH holy shit, Lucy comes in liao, another lucky day? she cant see he. blocked by Sally's comp but i can see her with ease! hahaha... 2 of "charlie's angels" arrived liao... Now N moved to another table with a gal n guy, cant get a clear view of her liao... when i finish logging, i will find a good seat! Now just look at Cathrine, hahaha, anyway the ger with her also okay looking, so my eyes wun sore liao. What should i do? Is this a blessing, blessing in disguise or disaster in disguise? i dun know, just dun know, any clues?

my msn nick is "fantasize", and my friends who read this blog thinks im fantasizing, but the blog writes the cold hard truth. Forgive me please, this is my blog, hope to use it to express myself, its not anything horny or corny. Thanks. Now back to basics, was in lib after sch, actually is during GP n after sch cause every1 pon GP. Bernice was there again, till 6. actually have DC but dun realli like the teacher, regreted cause after that then realised that she was there. Was gossiping with my friend and staring at 1, hahaha, the SC guys said shu an is v chio, better than Colene, Angad n I disapproves their opinion to a certain extent. hahaha, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. So to make up for the loss of seeing what i should, i stayed and studied in the void deck, she was around 6 benches in front... ahahha, ^5.wanted to study till she goes n i follow so can talk. Sat beside charlie, my ogl, nice guy, who was studying for bio prac. Was like the GPS, tracking her, hahez, it wasnt very intentional, its like automatic. So many impossibilities, quite a few possiblilties, fewer chances, so whats the chance of success? Thank God, hope he is helping me, amen.

I was trying to log just now but dumb shiwei came to kiap me, causing me to off the computer. gave them the blog site url, hai, hopefully they wun circulate as they promised. library is a cool place, not onli is the aircon damn "cool" so are the people, esp girls there...hahaha, quite a few of the top quality girls were in library for the past few days, esp the j2s, including her. Lets just name the few beauties A, E, I, O, U, and so on. on tue i was skipping class to do my hw n study physics, and saw her there. She was at a talbe with some girl and after the girl left i had the urge to sit at her table, but think is not nice to sit in front of her and stare at here while she study bio/chem.. ahaha. So sat diagonally 2 tables from her, ie 1i+2j in vector form. Was conatantly looking at her too and i think she noticec it. The table beside mine, hahez, the two other
chiobu(s) in her class, malai knows who liao... realli pleasurable for my eyes, admiring their beauty. Some track j2 chiobu who was my ogl waved to me during that time... why so lucky today? When i left, purposely walk pass her and wave to her, but think she is a bit "wateva" knowing that i was looking at her. When i came she smiled n wave, when i left, it was just a blank look with a forced smile. wanted to say sorry but im not insane, later kenna slapped by her in front of everyone. btw while im logging this, a j1 chiobu beside me, hahaha, hope she is not looking at this now... shes not bad la, but shes attached to some guy in nyjc liao... hahehihohu... think my devil is having prac today and got quarintine till quite late so she din come lib, quite sad, but Xanny came twice lorz, chio red socks...heeee... Time to study for physics test on circular motion n gravition liao... see u peepzZz.

On monday, i was not realli late for sch, but saw my friend who usually take cab with me if we were late. dat guy;s from hockey, knows rejab, who is in aj now. He wanna take cab to pick his 2 friends up so planned to take with him. Shockingly, a car stopped for us, not taxi. Quite shocked... then saw someone familiar.... its her!!! Never even imagine that she would ask her PARENTS to stop to give us a ride to sch... Sat beside her in the middle of the backseat, her mom a chinese, dad a white indian or sth like that. she was eating something like a chocolate cake... was, as usually, looking at her most of the time while my hockey friend smsed his friends abt not being able to pick them up. Think her dad noticed that i was looking at her... hahez... so impolite... arrived in sch early n she rushed off cause she has prelim exams.... good luck to her!!!

the ususal stuff, waking up late and took my time to have breakfast n dress, left home late and wait for a cab. A usual day indeed till an archangelist decend from nowhere, walking on the bridge to my side and offered to share cab with me. Throughout the time on the cab i was staring at her from the front seat through the side mirror. She is a beauty. my heart was popping out. Arriving in sch, she introduced herself n we walk to the hall together, expectally, i was looking at her. I wasnt fantasizing, i was admiring. Got to know what class she is, a J2 girl, with exams round the corner. Distracted so much that i couldnt study for my two test tmr, which is last thur. Asked malai if interested but he said his class's gers r kiaping him abt yy, hahaha. more to come....

Whats in a name? Whats in a misunderstood name? Somewhere out there, there will be one that truly understands me, that truly knows me, im, waiting for u.